All the victim-blaming and injustice I’ve gone through makes me sick. I hate it. I’ve been abused for 25 years in a row- since I was born. I’ve tried everything imaginable in defending myself and escaping, choosing pacifism and peace over violence and evil. I’m still stuck.
To top it off, after all this gaslighting and brainwashing I almost feel guilty – like it’s my fault I’m stuck here being mistreated and have been kept at bay from doing anything with my life… Like no one loves me or cares.